A day that will never leave my mind.
We had a delayed opening due to HSPA testing
So a great way to spend the morning was resting.
However something else was already planned
Something that I could not stand.
The phone rang constantly from India early in the morning
Those calls themselves were a huge warning.
They never call first, so why now?
Calling back was an option my brain did not want to allow.
Eventually my father called my mother and informed the news to her
Her heart breaking reaction proved that it was exactly what I did not want to occur.
My Bhabhi (aunt) who was in the hospital for a week had passed away
Unexpectedly left even though she was progressing everyday.
My brain didn't know how to process the sudden information
Throughout my body all I felt was a vibration.
Millions of thoughts and questions were racing through my head
But for now it was better to keep them unsaid.
I could not let my mother see my broken state
I had to stay strong even if I had to wait.
I let my emotions take over once I was alone in my room
The racing of my thoughts began to resume.
My Bhabhi was like my buddy in India who I would always stay with
She would sometimes tell me random myths.
We would go shopping, get haircuts, eat ice cream together
We would stay together in any type of weather.
While everyone enjoyed to go the farm all day
My Bhabhi and I would stay at home and play.
She was my pal even though she was my aunt.
Now Bhabhi isn't going to be there next time I visit and I can't
Imagine what it is going to be like without her.
Everything seems to be a blur.
After going through my breakdown I realized that I need to stay strong
For my mother and my family in India to help them move along.
Staying depressed is not going to help at all
We need to move on even if the steps we take are small.
"I wish you could come back but that is impossible.
Just know that I love you and you'll always stay in my mind because that is possible."
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